Changes

Vuvuzela !!

Thing's been getting really hectic lately. Last minute assignments and crap stress over a video editing again. Making a movie isn't easy when you don't have a smooth transaction to the story. I realize it's the same applied to a person's life. When I'm down, i tend to see more sad occasions around me. Especially me and friends. Trouble floats around but I notice the existence more now. It's never easy going through something by yourself. Friends are there for a reason. A companion, a buddy, an angel that walks the journey with you with love. 

I've got uncountable friends who went, who is going, and is in Australia and people by my side, are leaving 1 by 1. It's just a matter of time. But does it have to be this soon and this far and this long ?

Recently, a couple of friends just left in this few weeks, overseas. Even when I knew they'll be there for a few months or a year plus, I'm still sad. What more those that are not even sure if they're coming back after their degree. What shatters will be the road ahead. Changes that I'm going through now, I'm not used to it and I need time to adapt. It won't be short i guess. Things seems to be displaced, time don't feel like its at the correct place, everything's disorientated. I taste the other part of sacrifice to conquer distance as a barrier, and it isn't tasty at all. Life isn't that easy after all. I see so much, i think too much. It's always easier to be said than done my friends. Most importantly, we appreciate what we have now. The biggest regret will be not doing what I should have done earlier, and all I can say is, it's a blessing to have you being part of my life. Fighting a momentary fear is better than a life time regression. 

Love you all ~

I see you

I'm not sure about some people but I think I've thought about another part of myself. 

I am just 19 but somehow I don't have that URGE or DESIRE or THIRST to go party all night long and drink like some cow anymore. Doesn't mean I don't want it, obviously if there is I don't mind attending a party / clubbing. I prefer a relax and peaceful atmosphere and just have a good ol' chilling session with my friends. Just sit by the pool side, park, mamak, simple snacks , drinks, and just talk our hearts out. 

Yesterday was a little too bored so I decided to call everyone out. Went from my house about 9-ish to Sunway to kidnap Nigel then off to SS2 to kidnap leng and man and wchun, then off to kidnap shiatteen and somehow ended up at a park in Kota Damansara and we just chat till midnight and i somehow got home 3am.

I know some songs such as techno, trance, electro, house, pop can change a person's mood and affects the way a person drives. But for me, I drive even faster and goes day dreaming with songs really slow such as these. These are also songs that makes me think a lot while I'm driving and I somehow drive even faster than listening to party songs lol. These are also songs that are stuck in my head for now.

- Kina Grannis - Valentine

- Jason Derulo - Riding solo

- A cursive memory - A piano song

- Until June - In My Head

- Kylie Minogue - All the lovers

- Mika - I see you

- Mika - By the time

- Augustana - Boston

- Wyclef Jean - Sweetest girl

Had a good long talk with a friend and I learn to see how people suffer under those fake smile they put on every time they go out. I feel you, you feel me. Love you all. 

Can't Smile Without You

Can't smile without you by Barry Manilow is really beautiful.

Well, I've witness how my cousin got married to a girl he loved and it is just so beautiful. I've been trying to find a word to describe how I felt at that very moment they were declared husband and wife but I just couldn't.

I can't even verify my actual feeling nowadays as it's messed up with all sorts of it. I suddenly felt like taking a picture of this necklace that I had with me, maybe this is what I feel at that very moment. In this picture it illustrates most of my feelings perhaps, I need a proper translation. I took this photo in such a way that it feels loved and secure. I edited this photo in such a way that it looks smooth and lovely and warm. So what is that in the language of love ? haha 

Emptyness

Its been 3 days since you left and thing's been really different for everyone back here. Feeling somehow empty and something's always missing. 

Just like that, you left. Even if it's 5 months, it felt like 5 years. No one was ever ready to let you go.
Please make sure you come back after 2012 or I have no idea if we can all accept the fact that you'll be gone for good.

All I can say is, saying goodbye wasn't easy at all. Especially after how we are given this wonderful gift ;) Too bad time wasn't on our side. But a long wait will pay off.  So much to say !

You're deeply missed and always up and around our thoughts. Have a good time there Nat. 

Monkey Nat

I never  liked saying goodbye and I never will. Its somehow something we'll all have to face one day where everyone leave you one by one. One of me dearest friend is leaving and its gonna be 3 years. Now thats saddening. Well, time isn't the biggest factor to determine how close you are to a person, its all the lil things that gets together that makes 2 person close. We didn't had much time together and definitely not much at all until u get back ( if u will ). Not sure if I should be proud of this but I get really close to some people fast enough, to have great times together but saying goodbye will be a heartbreaker. 

To my dear Natalie a.k.a. Monkey !
Thing's been great for me and I'm blessed to have you part of my life. May you enjoy your life in Australia and take real good care of yourself out there. Stuffs happened, happens, but at least, we're happy being together rite. I surely miss the times we had together.

Your dumbness, your retardedness, your funnyness, your love, your caring, your laughs and stuffs that we've been through together will now be memories and may this be not forgotten.

How you try to seduce me with the pizza ? 

Act cute yea !

Hiding from some black dude in college ?

I can never forget this ! Anita washing plates in kitchen !

You'll deeply be missed by me and all of your friends back here. May you have the best of luck and please don't forget us. May faith bring us together again. =D

Loves ~

Jia Kent and Jasmine

How music plays a role in everyday life and be part of it.

XX

To SOME of you who knows me, I don't fancy mainstream music much. A friend of mine introduced me to this band called The XX with their album Self Titled. It's good. Somehow indie bands or say, the wide choices of non mainstream songs has this thing that suites most of my mood sometimes. Still need trance and electro to bang my head out or to stone. 

The xx are a three-piece band from London, England, formed in 2005.The four original band members met at Elliott School, notable for alumni including Hot Chip, Burial and Four Tet. The xx was originally a four-piece band, but keyboardist Baria Qureshi left the group in late 2009. how sad.

The XX - Intro
The XX - VCR
The XX - Shelter
This 3 songs i favor most in their latest album. Try it out.

Love is in the air

Having a new vision ahead of me. I'm starting to see things differently. Somehow it is really hard to put it in words and express. Maybe I'll start using pictures or photos to express myself. I'm getting really into photography but I think I need more time and exposure. 

Going through a wild time lately as everyone knows that World Cup is here and I've actually been out of the house most of the days where I don't have classes and come back around 2-3 or 3-4 or 4-5 am consecutively for this couple of weeks and I'm living a life of a vampire - sleeping really late and waking up really early for class. Hardworking vampire. I've been driving out too often and dad's claiming that I'm abusing the freedom and privilege that i was given so now I have to pay the price. I'm banned from driving out. So this means no more driving out for late outings and fitting 7 people in my truck and scream around for a moment.

KTA in Malaysia

One of the best events ever in my life just happened to me. For some people, it would be like, Michael Jackson performing in Malaysia, or some ABDC member dancing in Malaysia, Beyonce singing live here, playing football with Christiano Ronaldo. What just happened to me was, I just witnessed the Korean National Taekwondo Team. Yes, it's like the biggest ever. Look at it this way, they only perform for olympics, open ceremonies for famous events in the world but they are in Malaysia for a 3 day course. Monday - Tuesday - performance. Wednesday - what I attended was a 1.5 hour training with the Korean Champions ! The place was filled with all sorts of taekwondo people from all over Malaysia, at least those who can make it. Its a chance that not everyone in this world will have. I thank God for this rare opportunity to just take place in my very life. The Korean National Team with their team manager and the National Coach and the Grand Master came down as well. Its for some Malaysia - Korea relationship celebration shitz. Its like training with the top class in the world. No doubt it was extremely tired and energy draining, but it's worth our effort to drive down to KL just for this. They are like superstars in the world of Taekwondo, they are the best in the world. I'm just speechless. No words can describe my joy at this very moment.

Photos will be posted up soon

Things change, same goes to people

Its been a year. Most people graduated from their pre-U while I'm forced to proceed with me extended semester. Just a day before my class starts, I'm here in me very room cleaning up the usual mess on my table. This reminds me so much of graduating from high school as I was packing up all my books and studying materials. Despite the thick layer of dust that wraps up my books, it was rather mesmerizing flipping through my books once again. Each book I flip here rings a bell in me about my days in college. 

My rather old looking crumpled Calculus book which was inherited from god-knows-how-many-hands-before, I stared. No idea why this book gave me such a big impact but I actually took some time thinking about those times looking at it. Thinking back how I started my first day of college in a Calculus class with one of the best lecturer in HELP, Mr Joel. This brought me back to the days where we will struggle over some simple question and start scribbling all over our paper. Rather than being a lazy teacher sitting there asking us to do our own stuff, Mr Joel would approach us in his most friendly manner and practically talk to us about football and sometimes his life. It was really great.

Papers starts flying around, files starts falling off my shelf, paper cut on me hand with a running nose. When I looked at the huge pile of books and papers, it reminds me of how much we've been through this past 1 year. The amount of assignments, stress, pressure, challenges that we've conquered. What comes along was all the college drama and pathetic scenes. Totally miss the noise that was produced by some bunch of retard "pasar" people that actually has a symphony when they sing along which breaks my eardrums. Sitting at the 1 mile hallway, looking from one end, different type of people walking pass, some wasn't a very pleasant sight tho. Now, it felt empty. Things changed. Adaption occurs. 

Finally after a year, our "annual" trip happens. We headed to Redang this time. Special thanks to Susan who made this happened by getting things into place. It was a really really beautiful place with a really really beautiful memory that was given by each and everyone.

Having some traffic in my mind trying to write nowadays. Will think of more stuff to post up.