A word for 2009 ?

Who says mans are not sensitive. Sometimes, mans sees more than what women can see.

Is it me or time flew so much faster at my 18^th year. 2009 seemed to have zoomed past my oblivious life in those 365 days. Really, after going through it, only I realise how young I was, how childish to have such thoughts. Living through 2009, was quite different for me. Everything went by so fast, I didn’t had a chance to make things right.

Exactly a year ago, at this very time, I was very clear that I was pondering. Wondering about my future as well as all my friend’s future.  Wondering where we’ll all be, what we’ll all do, will we all still be together, who’s our new friends, will we ever see each other again – WORRIED will be the word. I’ve been so concern about my upcoming life till I foreseen the surroundings around me.

Well, a year has gone by. I now have the answer to my question above which I asked myself and my friends a year ago. Now, all of us mostly have a partial life of our own. We go to college, NS, some missing for a moment but now seems like everyone has a new part in life. But so far, at least in each of us, there are still spaces reserved for me and you and each of us that belongs in there, and that is something I appreciate much. Realise it is never easy to keep a friend by your side as compared to losing one?

Its midnight now, as I stood at my balcony up in my condo, the clear sky above me allows the stars to reflect upon my very own self. I looked out as the world is so big and we’re all so small in this very big world. What are the chances of 2 total strangers that will end up being awesome friends in future bumping into each other? It takes either a heck lots of arrangement by some spy agencies or it simply needs something we call – FAITH. I believe its faith that brought us ( me and my friends ) together and it is something we should all cherish forever. Because it will be such a waste seeing 2 person that has the opportunity to be brought together putting it to waste.

A year has gone by, really quick once again. Obviously I have met new people and as one says – everything comes and goes. Yes there are friends who also left as I met new people. Some had to go overseas, some simply had new friends and just have forgotten and basically moved on in their life. I seriously hope that those that are intact will stay intact, let the bond get stronger as time goes by. I’ve lose enough already. I’ve made many mistakes in my past, but I certainly did made an effort to make things better. What can I say, people learn from their mistakes don’t they. I've met wonderful friends, and terrible ones too. I've got really sweet friends also. Really really sweet and concern guys and girls. So glad I knew these people.

What I’ve been doing is spending my time rather going through a story book. My very own story of my life. I’ve been constantly reflecting myself with the past and present. Dim the lights get yourself comfy; let the speakers play some of your favourite songs that make you start thinking about life. Now look through all the photos u kept in your computer or facebook. What you’ll see is a transformation, a transformation of a person’s lifestyle. When we’re back in high school, we always promise ourselves that we’re all BFFs and we’ll never lose touch. Now look through those photos, see who is beside you in those photos. Go through it one by one, and think back of those moments you had with your friends. Those times spent together, those laughter’s, the upmost priceless bond that we’ve all built. Appreciate those friends. I seriously do have a problem because I am missing my friends so much, I would do anything to let the bond keep growing.

One day, all this will be just pictures in our memories. Kept in us till the day we grow old and die. Cherish the beauty of friends, especially those around you. Never let them slip off your sides. My 2009, I didn’t had enough of friends obviously. Sometimes, people just don’t feel the same way as I do feel, people don’t think I’m important while I do think they are to me. I just hope that people will never have the bad habit of choosing friends. Being unfair giving different treatments especially in a group of friends.

We’ll never learn unless we go through it. We’ll never regret until we lose it. And some people still don't bother appreciating. Maybe because they don't find that person important ? So close yet so far ?

* I have no idea what I just wrote above*

* I think I'm drunk*